Lonely Girl & Other Things – Just A Chat #2

It’s time for a little life update/what’s going on at the moment/how am I doing type post for my second Just A Chat post.

Let’s start with the title. Lonely Girl sounds a bit over-dramatic, and it is. But then again I do like to be a bit over-dramatic sometimes. Why are you a lonely girl, Tara? you may be wondering right now (or not, that’s fine too).
No, my boyfriend hasn’t left me. But he will this Saturday, to go to Denmark for 2 months for an internship at a farm. As happy and excited as I am for him, I am also a bit sad that I’ll have to miss him for so long, especially because it’s his birthday in those 2 months and I probably can’t come visit him because it is too expensive.

It’s also a bit scary for me, because this will be my first time living completely by myself, on my own, all alone. (Like I said, over-dramatic). I went from living with my mom to living with my boyfriend, and have never lived on my own. I am excited to see how it will go, but also very nervous, and I am afraid that I will start feeling very lonely. Luckily I have already asked my parents, my sister and my friends to come visit, and I have a fun little trip planned as well, so I will have more than enough distractions. I am also excited to just get into my own routine, not have to worry about someone else, and of course to have the bed all to myself so I can finally sleep like a starfish.

As for how I’m doing.. Not very well. I’ve been feeling a bit down and depressed lately, which probably has something to do with the fact that the boy is leaving. But also, I don’t know, I’ve just been feeling off. I don’t feel very motivated to do the things I need to do, and I’ve been having trouble getting out of bed sometimes. Luckily I have an amazing therapist that I see every week, someone I finally have that click with, that safe feeling you need to have with a therapist. So I hope she can help me get out of this, or deal with it at least.
One thing that has also been helping me feel better is writing. I have really been getting back into that these past few days. If you don’t know me, which you probably don’t, you won’t know that I love writing. Stories, or books, that is. I have been working on this one particular book/story thing for years now, on and off, and I have just been feeling inspired and motivated to do that once again. It’s just so much fun, and so relaxing, and I love it.
Another thing that has been helping me is colouring. A few years ago I got a few of those adult colouring books, and I have been enjoying those a lot as well. It is very calming, and it helps to take your mind off of everything that might be going on in your life. I would highly recommend it to anyone!

Last but not least for this little update is the trips I have planned, and with those a few blog posts. The first bigger trip that I have coming up is visiting one of my best friends in Germany, where she has been living for the past few months for an internships she’s doing. I am really excited to see her temporary new home and do some fun things in the 2 days I will be there. I think I might be doing a little post about my trip, and a “What I Pack” post as well.
The other trip I have planned is 3 nights in Antwerp with the boyfriend in August. I am SO EXCITED! We fell in love with that city when we went there in October, and I can’t wait to explore a bit more. We definitely wanna go to the Fashion Museum and the zoo, and have dinner at this amazing Italian place we discovered last time. Other than that we don’t have any plans yet, but I am going to do a little Google search soon for some inspiration. Again, I am thinking about doing a travel post and one about everything I will bring.

Speaking of blog posts, I really need to think of ways to take pictures for the blog, now that my boyfriend won’t be here to act as my personal photographer. I just ordered one of those Bluetooth remotes for my phone so hopefully that’ll work, and of course I’m gonna try to persuade my friends and family when they come to visit.

So that was it for my little update. I won’t blame you if you didn’t finish it, as it was a long one with lots of text. But I hope you enjoyed it anyway. I at least found it very nice to just write everything down and send it out into the universe (also known as the internet). I hope to see you on Friday for a new one (don’t worry, it won’t be as ramble-y as this one).

-x Tara